Thursday, March 12, 2009
I am still not certain for the decisions I've made is as worthy as it seems. Apparently, I chose to stay and settle myself wid another 2 year of Higher Nitec(if that is I am eligible, results out this Friday, shucks) and be employed at the same time. At least in time to come, I know my income wise won't be as bad as it was in those days of me and lazyness. Hehehe. Then again, I thought, after all, being a Guest Relation isn't as bad as it looks, you know. You just gta determine yourself to be immune to all fucked up customers out there and birthday parties is like a snap to me like that. Chey, self-proclaim, stop it eh. Haha!
In any way, now that I am already a certified part-timer staff, I, by all means can plan my own availability of schedule and oh, I can choose to be carefree on a Thursday night. Sister, you know I know. Hee.
These days, I can't figure out just why but I kept dreaming of scenes I don't wish to come by in reality. In fact, nightmare it is. Silly as it will sound, I dreamt Hafiz played behind my back and it was strange that I got woken up by the shakes of Mom telling me I was literally sobbing and whailing and crying in my sleep. Yes, it was that bad. Oh my gawd, for the night I am tucking in, I promise I will start to recite a goodnight prayer before an official night sleep or not, I will just go berserk the next morning I wake up.
"I don't want to be the best but I wanna be better."
Who would have thought my boy was a flattery for favor? Hehe, kidding. Love you so much.
another aimless post.